6 yrs ago this week

Six years ago this week and six yrs ago last week, was one of the toughest weeks for me. I was working a lot of hours and not feeling good at all. My Uncle Joe was dying from Leukemia, so I was pretty much staying with my aunt to help care for him, which let me say I would never take these weeks back for nothing. Even though I was not feeling good and working a lot and not really seeing my husband, I enjoyed being with my uncle on his last few days. I got to know him and hear stories about him from my aunt or when he wasnt out of it and could talk from him. Besides my aunt I was the only one that could see him without a hat and help him to the bathroom. I believe it was my aunt at one point that asked How are you able to see him without his hat but noone else can. My reply I believe was: I told him that I have magic eyes and when he doesnt have his hat on I still see it as if it were on. Of course he didnt believe me but it did help him open up around me and feel comfortable with me being around.
On this exact day May 25th 2004, was one of the saddest but happiest days of my life. It was sad because I seen my aunt in pain from just losing her husband to the battle of Leukemia in the am of this morning. But I was happy because my uncle wasnt suffering anymore and knew that he had gone home to god. I was also happy and excited on this day because you see I went to the doctor that morning to, to see why I havent been feeling good, and come to find out I was pregnant with Nathan. Even though I was happy and excited for mine and Nate's good news, I also felt guilty after getting back to my aunts house and just finding out that my uncle had passed away shortly after I had left for my appointment.
I didnt tell anyone but nate that we were pregnant for two reasons. One we had had a miscarriage a few months before and wanted to wait until we got to the safe zone but two because my aunt had just lost a husband and a best friend and I didnt want to show my happiness to her. I do think I ended up telling her to because I wanted her to know that even though uncle joe has gone home to god, god has sent as a new angel into our lives and he will be here in like nine months.