Wednesday, January 23, 2013

Nathan's 8th birthday

A very heartfelt birthday wish to my firstborn son, Nathan Xavier, who turns 8 years old today. Well, to be precise, at 11:09am today, he will be 8 years old officially! For Nathan, it’s a hugely exciting occasion, celebrating his birthday. It’s fun and happy and he gets to be spoiled and treated as though he’s King for a Day! His daddy will take him to the chocolate house and he will mostly likely get Jimmy Johns for his birthday dinner. He took homemade cupcakes to school today and he will be going to the waterpark on Saturday to celebrate his birthday with the people that love and care for him. For me, it’s a very emotional and proud day. I reflect back to the day of Nathan’s birth. Arriving at the hospital at 530am not knowing what to expect and a little scared. You were a tiny boy, 6 pounds 11 ounces and 19” long. He lied all snugged in my arms sleeping, then these 2 blue eyes ( which didn’t stay) opened up and look straight at me, at that moment my heart melted and I felt an amazing connection between me and my little boy. Here is a little poem I came up with for my little man. “No matter who you become I will always remember you like today So forgive me if I struggle To recognize the man you will become But I’m just a mom Trying to hold onto the memory Of my sweet little boy”. Nathan, I wish you all the happiness in the universe, for now and always. You are my heart and soul and everything in my life revolves around you, Izabella and the new baby. You guys are my world and I would do anything for you guys. We may not see eye to eye all the time, especially when you are older but know this, I only did or do what I think is best for you at the time. I may not like what you do or may experience but know that your daddy and I are always here for you three, no matter what it maybe. I love you three to the moon and back! Happy birthday my handsome, precious, incredible, loving, caring little boy. <3

Thursday, May 24, 2012

So normally the princess is up b4 any of us but that is not the case today and I went into wake her up for school and she looked at me and threw the blanket over her head. LOL

Tuesday, May 8, 2012

For Nathan and Izabella

Hello Nathan and Izabella,
I am writing you both because this is something that I want to print off and make into a book and give each one of you one to keep so that you can see things you both have accomplished in life and be able to look back on family memories, so maybe good and some not so good but they are memories that I thought were important.
I want you to both know that mommy and daddy always try our best with you guys and as parents we may make some mistakes and not be able to take them back, but are just humans and its okay for people to make mistakes from time to time. Sometimes people make mistakes because of the way they were taught when they were younger, but as we mature and grow into our own person we live and learn.
So here we go. Mommy and daddy are asked often why we dont vaccinate you(Nathan) anymore and why you (Izabella) have never been vaccinated and I am sure when you get older and on your own you will be asked the same questions. So here is the reason.

WHAT ARE THE MADE OUT OF?
They contain several toxic chemicals and disturbing ingredients such as formaldehyde, aluminum, thimerosal mercury, hydrochloric acid, aborted fetus tissue (MRC-5 cellular protein), human DNA, human serum, egg albumin, bovine serum (cow), sodium borate (borax, pesticide), gelatin, lactose, MSG, phenol, sodium hydroxide, sodium chloride (table salt), and Sucrose (table sugar). These ingredients I have listed are in the most common vaccines given to infants/children.
Definitions of some of the Ingredients:
*Serum or albumin - a protein found in blood plasma
*Hydrochloric acid - The mist and the solution have a corrosive effect on human tissue, with the potential to damage respiratory organs, eyes, skin, and intestines.
*Phenol - The substance may cause harmful effects on the central nervous system and heart, resulting in dysrhythmia, seizures, and coma. Solid sodium hydroxide or solutions of sodium hydroxide may cause chemical burns, permanent injury or scarring if it contacts unprotected human or other animal, tissue.
Link from the CDC that shows all the ingredients in every vaccine. If you don't know what it means, then Google it. You should know what you are injecting into your child.
http://www.cdc.gov/vaccines/pubs/pinkbook/downloads/appendices/B/excipient-table-1.pdf
Link for more information on the aborted fetus tissue (CDC did have information on this but the web page is currently down, I wonder why?)
http://www.catholiceducation.org/articles/medical_ethics/me0044.htmlhttp://www.vaccinationnews.com/dailynews/October2002/VaccinesFromAborted4.htm
EFFECTIVENESS
They are not effective as they want you to think. You can still get the diseases even with the vaccines. The recent whooping cough (pertussis) outbreak that happened in New York, 100% of the people/children who got whooping cough WERE RECENTLY VACCINATED for it. Here is the quote, “According to Suffolk health officials, all those affected had been immunized in the past, but immunizations are not 100 percent effective." Wow, that is just AMAZING to me. So that means that not ONE unvaccinated child got the disease during the "outbreak" but they are the ones who are dangerous? I don't think so. The flu shot states on the package insert, "there have been no controlled trials adequately demonstrating a decrease in influenza disease after vaccination with FLULAVAL." It also states, "Safety and effectiveness of FLULAVAL have not been established in pregnant women, nursing mothers, or children" But yet they push children, pregnant women and elderly to get the vaccine yearly even though it hasn't even been tested for effectiveness or safety.
Link to the article about New York's whooping cough outbreak
http://www.nbcnewyork.com/news/local/Whooping-Cough-Triple-Suffolk-County-Long-Island-132659533.html
Link to the package insert for FLULAVAL
http://us.gsk.com/products/assets/us_flulaval.pdf
ADVERSE REACTIONS & VAERS
I have heard many times from the CDC that adverse reactions are rare. They are not as rare as they want you to believe. You can search the VAERS database (Vaccine Adverse Event Reporting System). You can select any vaccine for any year and it shows you reports that people have made about them and what issues they cause. Those are just the reported incidences and many of them go unreported or the parent don't even know that vaccines are the cause of their child's behavior, health issues or mental problems. There are "bad" batches of vaccines that harm groups of people who got the batch. There is no way to test the batch to see if it’s a good or bad one before injecting it into someone.
The package insert (the paper that comes with the vaccines, like they have for all medications) for the DTaP (diphtheria, tetanus, & pertussis) vaccine states, "Adverse events reported during post-approval use of Tripedia vaccine include idiopathic thrombocytopenic purpura, SIDS, anaphylactic reaction, cellulitis, autism, convulsion/grand mal convulsion, encephalopathy, hypotonia, neuropathy, somnolence and apnea." They just admitted that the DTaP shot can cause SIDS & AUTISM!! Google some of the other symptoms and it will shock you! How many parents actually read the package inserts that come with the vaccines? How many parents are given the package insert to read from the doctor before injecting your child with the vaccine? I have NEVER received one or know anyone who has!
Link to the DTaP package insert, page 11 has the statement about SIDS & Autism.
https://www.vaccineshoppe.com/image.cfm?doc_id=5966&image_type=product_pdf
From the CDC:
DTaP MODERATE PROBLEMS include; Seizure (jerking or staring), Non-stop crying for 3 hours or more, high fever 105 degrees or higher. Those are Moderate? I think Not! Here are the SEVERE Problems: Long term seizures, coma or lowered consciousness and/or permanent brain damage. They forgot to also include DEATH! Let’s do this again but for the MMR vaccine; Moderate Problems: seizure (jerking or staring), temporary pain and stiffness, temporary low platelet count (which can cause a bleeding disorder). Here are the Severe Problems: serious allergic reaction, deafness, long-term seizures, coma or lowered consciousness, permanent brain damage. Those "problems" sound way worse than any side effect of the actual disease!
Link to the VEARS website
http://www.medalerts.org/vaersdb/index.php
Link to the vaccine side-effects from the CDC
http://www.cdc.gov/vaccines/vac-gen/side-effects.htm
If you happen to be allergic to eggs and get injected with a vaccine that contains eggs such as the flu shot, then you can have a serious allergic reaction to the vaccine and have seizures, convulsions, brain damage, and/or DEATH! You would think that the doctor would make sure you are not allergic to anything inside the vaccines before injecting them into your body, but they don't. Have you ever been tested to make sure you weren't allergic to anything inside of them? Everyone's body is different and it should be treated that way. Vaccines should not be one size fits all kind of thing.
Link to the package inserts for the most common used vaccines
http://www.vaccinesafety.edu/package_inserts-bymanuf.htm
NATIONAL VACCINE INJURY COMPENSATION PROGRAM
If vaccines didn't cause issues then why there is a federal program called the National Vaccine Injury Compensation Program that has paid out BILLIONS to people that have had their family members harmed by or dead from vaccines since the 80’s? Government program has been quietly paying awards to vaccine-injured children with autism and brain damage for two decades but continues to deny vaccine-autism link. Interesting! A Doctor/Mother received payments from the government for the vaccine induced autism her son has from a vaccine. She has received millions of dollars in annuity payments from the government. She was told to keep quiet or they would stop paying her the annuity payments. Her son is now in a home because he needs around the clock care.
Fox News Video Interview with the doctor/mother who was paid from government
http://childhealthsafety.wordpress.com/2011/05/10/pace-study/
Links to article
http://healthfreedoms.org/2011/06/14/hush-money-for-vaccine-autism-while-still-denying-link/
Link to the National Vaccine Compensation Program (NVIC)
http://www.hrsa.gov/vaccinecompensation/index.html
WHY DO DOCTORS GIVE THEM IF THEY AREN'T SAFE OR EFFECTIVE?
Doctors make money from vaccines. They get commission, bonuses, and the money for the actual exam each time you walk through the door. They get paid from pharmaceutical companies who pay them to prescribe their drugs to patients. They also probably believe since they were taught the same curriculum that vaccines are safe and they are doing more good than bad. I have heard several nurses tell me that vaccines DO NOT contain aborted fetus tissues, when that is clearly a lie, the CDC's website says so themselves. Seems like maybe they need to do some research on their own and not believe what people tell them or what they read in their text books. On Dr.Sears website, he has stated, "I’ve always wondered by so many doctors are so adamantly hardcore about demanding all their patients fully vaccinate, and why they kick patients out of their office who refuse. I’d always just assumed it was because the doctors felt that the vaccine protection was so important that they don’t want any children to be at risk, so they draw a line in the sand for the good of the child (in their minds). BUT some doctors, especially those large groups who rely heavily on large HMO contracts, may actually be doing this because of money. Do they have the right to do so? Of course. But is it right? I don’t know. The American Academy of Pediatrics Committee on Bioethics makes it very clear that the official AAP policy is that doctors NOT kick patients out of their office over this issue. But when money talks, some people don’t listen."
Link to this article from Dr. Sears
http://www.askdrsears.com/topics/vaccines/do-doctors-have-financial-incentive-get-their-patients-fully-vaccinated
SCARE TACTICS & UNVACCINATED KIDS CAN GO TO PUBLIC SCHOOL
The hospital you have your baby in and the doctors all use scare tactics to push you into getting the vaccines. They tell you if you don't get the Hep B in the hospital that CPS will come talk to you about it. Some cases that is true, but they just ask you why and that's it, case closed. Unless they have a reason to open a case against you for another issue. They have to investigate every case reported to CPS no matter what the issue is.
They also tell you that your child CANNOT attend school or daycare without vaccines. This amazes me that they say this because it is completely FALSE! Every state has exemptions. There are religious, medical and/or philosophical. Look into what your state exemption laws are. I ordered my daughters exemption forms for daycare/school online from the Texas Department of State Health Services for FREE! My child will not have any problems at all going to public school. Even if that were the case and my child couldn't attend public school for being unvaccinated then I would home school her. If I also lived in a state with no exemptions that applied to me, I would move to a different one. You have to do what is necessary to protect our children. It’s another scare tactic they use to push people to vaccinate.
Click here to get your exemption from the state of Texas
https://webds.dshs.state.tx.us/immco/affidavit.shtm
HEPATITIS B (HEP B)
This is the first vaccine your baby gets hours after being born and it's for a sexually transmitted disease. It is spread through sexual activity or sharing needles from someone infected. I don't know about you, but I'm 100% sure that my newborn baby would not even come close to either of those things. For the past three or four years our school districts have noted a significant increase in the number of children entering school with developmental disorders, learning disabilities, attention deficit disorders and/or serious chronic illness such as diabetes, asthma and seizure disorders. Each of the past four years has been worse than the year before. There is only one common thread we have been able to identify in these children: they are the children who received the first trial hepatitis B injections as newborns in the early 1990s.
SERIOUSNESS OF THE DISEASES
If you or your child were to get any of these diseases, the odds of you actually dying from the disease are small. Millions of people have had polio, mumps, chicken pox, pertussis (whooping cough), and have recovered 100% and live normal lives and now have natural lifelong immunity to some of those diseases. Some people didn't even know that they had the disease while infected. A small handful actually has damage or dies from the disease. It depends on your body and what your immune system can handle. Someone can get whooping cough and it was less severe than the flu for them. It makes you wonder what other underlying heath problems the people had that did die from one of these diseases. Did they take care of their bodies and were they healthy, breastfed, or living in poor conditions?
DISEASES WERE ALREADY DECLINING BEFORE VACCINES
They say that vaccines "wiped out" some diseases like Polio & Smallpox. That is also not true. There are several graphs and charts that show these diseases were already declining before the vaccines were ever introduced to the public. These diseases have gone down because we have better sanitation, hygiene, know how to cook food properly, ect. We do not "do our business" in outhouses or buckets, we wash our hands, have clean drinking water and know how these disease are contacted and do our best to keep away from them.
Here is the link to the website showing these charts
http://childhealthsafety.files.wordpress.com/2009/02/vaccines-did-not-save-us-e28093-2-centuries-of-official-statistics.pdf
HOW TO FIGHT THESE DISEASE WTHOUT VACCINES
The best way to fight against diseases and illnesses is to boost your immune system and stay healthy mentally and physically. Eat fruits and veggies, drink a lot of water, take vitamins and minerals, exercise and have a good mental attitude! Stay away from sick people and was your hands. All those disease can be preventable. Your body can do amazing things but it has to be in the best shape to do them.
EXTRA FACTS YOU SHOULD KNOW
In 1975 Japan raised the minimum age for infant vaccinations to 2 years. As a result, SIDS (Sudden Infant Death Syndrome, or, crib death) and infant convulsions virtually disappeared. In the 80's, Japan lowered the minimum age back down to 3 months and the rate of SIDS returned to previous levels.
According to the U.S. National Childhood Vaccine Injury Act (est.1986): To qualify for compensation, the adverse effects of vaccination must occur within four hours of receiving the vaccine. Despite this extremely severe limitation, as of February 28, 1998 compensatory payments have totaled $871,800,000.00. This figure is even more alarming when it is revealed that only ONE IN FOUR claimants were awarded compensation. (That number has increased to over 2 billion as of 2010)
In 1950 (before mass immunizations began), the USA had the third lowest infant mortality rate in the world. By 1986, the USA dropped to 17th place. In 1995 the USA dropped to 23rd and now the USA has dropped to the appalling position of 24th in the health of its children (but the USA is now first in vaccine compliance through government mandates). Does this make you nervous too?
Vaccinated children have 2 to 5 times MORE DISEASES & DISORDERS than unvaccinated children. That's amazing considering the fact that vaccines are supposed to help your immune system and health but yet studies show the opposite. Vaccinated kids are more likely to have: allergies, asthma/chronic bronchitis, neurodermatisis, herpes, otitis media, hay fever, hyperactivity, scoliosis, epilepsy/seizures, migraines, thyroid disease, diabetes mellitus.
Link to this article
http://healthfreedoms.org/2011/10/14/big-study-vaccinated-kids-2-5-more-diseases-than-unvaccinated/
True story: A school in Massachusetts had a recent flu clinic for students and the community in its gymnasium. A vaccine syringe was dropped, shattered and its contents spilled onto the floor. An evacuation of the entire gym was called and a hazardous waste protocol ensued. A hazmat team has to come in to clean the mess up when a vile is dropped.
STORIES FROM PARENTS WHOS CHILDREN HAVE DIED FROM VACCINES
This family had a baby who had a severe reaction to the Hep B vaccine and died only a few months old. I cry my eyes out looking at the pictures of this poor baby. I can't even imagine this happening to my child.
http://iansvoice.org/ianslife.aspx
This story is about a baby who was having seizures from vaccines but the doctors and hospital staff kept telling her it had nothing to do with the vaccines and ignored her. The baby ended up not making it.
http://healthimpactnews.com/2011/so-how-does-a-mother-feel-when-her-baby-is-dead-from-vaccines-and-all-she-hears-from-doctors-the-government-and-media-is-that-vaccines-are-safe-and-effective/
SPIRITUALITY/RELIGOUS STAND
It says in the Bible not to mix the blood of human with the blood of animals. They are doing just that with Vaccines. They are injecting animal DNA into humans. Scientist are now finding out that these vaccines are actually altering our DNA. Maybe that's why we have more aggressive/animalistic characteristics now.
I asked God and prayed asking him to show me signs that my decision is the right one. I admit, I do get nervous sometimes and think how sad it would be if my daughter did catch one of these diseases but our lives are in God's hands. It is up to Him what happens to us. Two days after praying asking for a sign, I took my younger sister to the ER, while we were waiting in the waiting area, a young girl probably 15 yrs old, was brought in on a stretcher. I thought she might have been in car accident the way she looked. I overheard her Mother tell the nurse at the window that she received a flu shot then collapsed in the store. I'm assuming she got the shot at a grocery store instead of a doctor’s office which is disturbing in itself. But anyways, the young woman was shaking, eyes rolling in the back of her head, sweating like crazy, and looked out of it. She was a black girl but her face was pale! Like she was losing the color in her skin. She looked like she was on deaths doorstep. She wasn't even a priority! She waits in the waiting room looking out of it and shaking and sweating uncontrollably for HOURS before she was called back. The whole time I just kept thinking how bad I felt for that young girl and how her Mom probably doesn't even know the dangers of what she just allowed her daughter to do. I hope it opened up her eyes and they don't make the same mistake twice. I asked God for a sign and he gave me one. He also continues to guide me and help me. He can do the same for you if you open up to Him. God Loves Everyone!!
BOTTOM LINE
It is up to us as parents to do what is best for our children. If you feel that vaccines is what is best then go for it but understand the risks you are taking by doing it. If you feel that vaccines are not safe then we shouldn't be harassed and called names for something we believe because it’s different from the majority. Go with your gut feelings, mothers intuition, God's voice (whatever you want to call it) and do what you feel is right for you & your family.
Educate yourself and you will be surprised what you find out.

Monday, April 30, 2012

So today we are eating dinner and Xavier says; You know what mom, when I get older and have my own kids, I am never going to tell them "NO" and I will buy them everything they want and take them wherever they want. Me: So you are? Xavier: Yup. Me: Nathan can you name some of the place that you have been to? Xavier: Yes, Grand Canyon, Flagstaff, Sedona, California, Colorado, the North Pole, Pennsylvania, on the Polar Express, to a dinosaur place, camping, and I dont remember what else. Me: Okay and what expensive toys do you have? Nathan: WII, DS, and gameboy, but you dont allow me to play with them all the time and I will allow my kids to do it. Me: Nathan do you realize that you have probably seen more and done more than most kids your age? Also a lot of kids your age dont have the game systems you have, so you are lucky on that. Do you know why most of the time we say "NO"? Nathan: Ya because I have not earned it or I can hurt myself and its better for us to be playing outside or around the house instead on the Wii and such, so that is why we dont get to play often. Me: So why would you give your child everything they want or never say "no"? Nathan: Because I am young & that is what I want to happen now, so I am sure my kids will want the samething, but it just may change when I am a daddy and you are a grandma. Me: LOL, first of all we are not talking about me being a GRANDMA, 2nd when I become a grandma, I am going to spoil those babies crazy like you and Izzy get spoiled. Nathan, oh no you arent and I thought you said we are not going to talk about you being a grandma. LOL

Wednesday, April 4, 2012

So we are driving and the song Country Girl (shake it for me) comes on and Izzy loves this song so I turned it up louder (because she usually asks me to). Well that wasnt the case this time. Izzy: Mommy please turn it down, I am on the phone (her play phone)with MiMi (my mom). So I turned it down then I hear: Oh WHATEVER BYE, and she hung up her phone. I guess she didnt like what MiMi (Susan Ososky Todd) had to say. LOL She asked MiMi if she had to work tomorrow and I am guessing MiMi said "yes".

Friday, March 30, 2012

Good thing my step FIL works at Sara Lee, because his granddaughter is eating PB&Jelly over here like CRAZY, so far she has had two and said Grandpa Joe's bread is good mommy and I ate it all. I then said well its a good thing grandpa stocked us up for at least the next couple of weeks. She then said "WE HAVE MORE"? LOL

Wednesday, March 28, 2012

Izzy: Mommy I want a sandwich. Me: What kind of sandwich? Izzy: A sandwich please. Me: I know but what Kind? Do you want PB&J or Tunafish? Izzy: No I think Jimmy Johns is good. ME: LOL, Izzy we dont have one around here. Izzy: Lets go to Uncle Jeffrey's and Aunt Brittany's (Bonsecour) house then. Me: Not today. Izzy: Oh fine then mustard and bread sandwich. LOL